I'm back agains. i need to pour out my feelings,somehow,somewhere. infact, i was happie a moment ago as he agreed on the breakup luhh. but when i get back to my blog,i saw some taggs an i thought to myself, see Chanelle? there ARE people who cares about YOU. dont get upset.you've just merely lost a someone more to care for you thats all.you have many other people who cares about you and infact going through wad you are going through now.the minute i told him i wanted to have a breakup,in the next like 15 minutes ? messages starting flowing in. they were either concerned or asking me the reason why and asking me if i'm fine. i replied them after having my shower which was touched by them and had wet eyes.i didn't have wet eyes because of him.but then,a moment agao agains,he asked me: if next time i ask you for patch,you will accept ? the straight answer to my mind was a NO.but i didn't want to let him go but yet i wanted him to go. dono wad shiet i'm up to now. freaking Chanelle. my answer was : see how bahs. i didn't want to hurt him frther. maybe its just a naive thinking that he'll get hut as much as me or even more then me. maybe the fact is,he is happy or he doesn't even give damn.or worse worse, he is already starting to jio other girls.tt would only mke me think that he is just despo or can't live without a gf ? maybe such thinkings are wrong. Hey Chanelle, dont insult people,maybe ur wrong.but Hey,who cares ? wad if its real ? and why do i care if hurt him ? WALAO ! STOP IT LAH ! its either this or that right ? WAD THE SHIT.i guess i wont know how to face him tomorrow luhh !should i ignore and walk away,pretended nothing happened,smile at him or roll eyes at him or just make myself invisible and freaking damn it walk past him ? stupid. sont noe luhh. see how it goes. perhaps he does not even care how i react. lets see wad he does.sometimes,i do think that being so happy after the breakup was it just all to cover up te sadness inside it or do i really think tat i'm finally FREE ? i AM free.i dont noe luhh.so shity now. change subject lah. lets see wad i did for today.
-Today aka Monday
-Had exams (compo and letter writing eng and chi)
-forgot to bring chi dictionary !
-went to jurong point with zu ni and jia mei
-Had Ichiban Sushi ! was super high at that time
-i had my california handroll ! LOLS !
-PIANG ! it shot me dead and i BROKE.
done and over with. resumed to singlehood(:
thats all peeps! i hope i could change my song agains.hahs.just hope i could.(: i'll try. hahahs. i hope i won't dread to go to school EVERYDAY.i might just want to stay in the classroom the the girls bathroom until the bell has rung and when you've gone home.i think i dread to see you now. forgive me. i'm so sorry. no more,its done and OVER with. i SHALL recover.anyone can get me love healing medicine ? hahahs.. just joking. perhaps i'm self-pitying. yeah..
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