hey guys ! great news ! i've gotten over that thing lurhs ! i'm so happie cans ! and i've over come it .how great ? i know it as i tried to hurt myself by doing 'something' luhhs . and when i started to read it and all and analyse it in my mind , i felt as though nothing happened and i don't feel hurt anymore ! if it was the past , i would . but now , i didn't ! WAHAHAH ! how great is that ?! lol ! and these few days , i've seen so many stuff and things that made me pick myself up through pieces and pieces . and now , i'm back to my old self . i'm happy and ready to go the sydney trip without anything stupid bothering my mind . muahahah ! so miraculosly , i've discovered so many phrases from internet , books and mostly tv that helped me picked myself up . the one that has the greatest impact on me was from my idol Charmaine Sheh See Man ! hahas ! she told me this , ohkay , assuming she's saying this to me yeah . hahas ! she told ' me ' : does he know you're suffering ? even if he does , does he care ? he's now happy with some other girl but you're not . is it fair ? no it isn't . and just keep thinking that it's his lost that that person isn't you . and you've gained that , that person isn't him .
yes , this is roughly something she told me . some of you guys might not understand some parts but at lease , i do ! and i've picked myself up ! and i'm back to the old Chanelle . and guess what ? i've just realised i've got a new crush ! hahahaah ! BUT , i WON'T get carried away once again and stead with my that crush . even if he ask me , i'll say NO. for once bitten , twice shy . i've learnt my lesson and i shall be sensible now . i'll just treat the past like an experience thats all . no hard feelings . and if he sees this and blew his top , i don't care and i don't give a damn . for it's inmature if he blews his top . and imature in a crude way is childish .so whatevers luhh . blew it or not , ain't my shiet buisness . BUT , he's my normal friend luhh . hehehs . no enermy gained , but , one friend earned . great accomplishment ! HAHAH ! wu ~ i tell you uhh ! my crush damn handsome ! LOL ! nah .. just jk . hehehes . back to the topic . ohkays , i think i'm thinking too much , he won't come to my blog one luhh . he doesn't even care . like what Charmaine says . hahas, so why bother ? lol ! i'm such a idiot !. lol ! woah .. pouring everything out her is so shiok . lol ! i hope to go to the arcade to race car with clara and look alike boon keong and friends once agains . hahahah ~ i'm so crazy ! but , i like it ! ahahah ! oh yah! don't tell my crush i like him ah ~ . hahahs ! even if he knows , who cares ? at most pai seh only mahs . i mean , it's natural for girls to like guys . i hadn't done anything to him . and i believe he's matures to handle such stuff . regardless whether he do stuffs to hurt me emo or shell , i don't care . coz i know one day , i'll forget about him and i'll crush on another someone agains . hahah ! ~ . oh yah ! and , i want to thank Andy aka Heng Kwan for being the FBF role of mine . but andy ! don't ever disclose this ah ! orelse , i'll ps de wor . but thanks for all the help boy ! . oh yah ! why i said my crush is matured is that becoz he's older than me . hahah ! . but won't be 5 years apart luhh please . not so old kay . hahah ! and ! Thishalini called me today ! i'm so surprised cans ! hahahaha ! i bet she misses me ! LOL ! ohkays , shall't talk much lers , i feel great pouring everything out ! WOHOOS SYDNEY ! CHANELLE LAO LERS ! hahah ! I LOVE YOU GUYS ! I'M SO HIGH NOW ! HAHAH ! ohkays , shall not crap further , thanks for all the suppost people ! i love you guys ! buhbye ! (:
yes , this is roughly something she told me . some of you guys might not understand some parts but at lease , i do ! and i've picked myself up ! and i'm back to the old Chanelle . and guess what ? i've just realised i've got a new crush ! hahahaah ! BUT , i WON'T get carried away once again and stead with my that crush . even if he ask me , i'll say NO. for once bitten , twice shy . i've learnt my lesson and i shall be sensible now . i'll just treat the past like an experience thats all . no hard feelings . and if he sees this and blew his top , i don't care and i don't give a damn . for it's inmature if he blews his top . and imature in a crude way is childish .so whatevers luhh . blew it or not , ain't my shiet buisness . BUT , he's my normal friend luhh . hehehs . no enermy gained , but , one friend earned . great accomplishment ! HAHAH ! wu ~ i tell you uhh ! my crush damn handsome ! LOL ! nah .. just jk . hehehes . back to the topic . ohkays , i think i'm thinking too much , he won't come to my blog one luhh . he doesn't even care . like what Charmaine says . hahas, so why bother ? lol ! i'm such a idiot !. lol ! woah .. pouring everything out her is so shiok . lol ! i hope to go to the arcade to race car with clara and look alike boon keong and friends once agains . hahahah ~ i'm so crazy ! but , i like it ! ahahah ! oh yah! don't tell my crush i like him ah ~ . hahahs ! even if he knows , who cares ? at most pai seh only mahs . i mean , it's natural for girls to like guys . i hadn't done anything to him . and i believe he's matures to handle such stuff . regardless whether he do stuffs to hurt me emo or shell , i don't care . coz i know one day , i'll forget about him and i'll crush on another someone agains . hahah ! ~ . oh yah ! and , i want to thank Andy aka Heng Kwan for being the FBF role of mine . but andy ! don't ever disclose this ah ! orelse , i'll ps de wor . but thanks for all the help boy ! . oh yah ! why i said my crush is matured is that becoz he's older than me . hahah ! . but won't be 5 years apart luhh please . not so old kay . hahah ! and ! Thishalini called me today ! i'm so surprised cans ! hahahaha ! i bet she misses me ! LOL ! ohkays , shall't talk much lers , i feel great pouring everything out ! WOHOOS SYDNEY ! CHANELLE LAO LERS ! hahah ! I LOVE YOU GUYS ! I'M SO HIGH NOW ! HAHAH ! ohkays , shall not crap further , thanks for all the suppost people ! i love you guys ! buhbye ! (:
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